Prideful Heartbreak

Pitter patter the rain falls on.

Not a wink of sleep I could get.

Tis not a pleasant night, or should I say dawn?

Too much fretting, I'm afraid, to fret.

Pitter patter, the thoughts go on.

For things have gone oh so clouded.

The one I love, and oh so fond.

Was he ever mine, I doubted.

Pitter patter, tis how sad I am,

Now that you've gone.

Sorrow deepens, well I'll be damn.

Gone it is, your soothing tone.

Pitter patter please don't go.

Comforting it is, your song I must say.

Stay awhile longer so I won't fall so low.

Till daylight comes, please stay.

Pitter patter my heart won't calm down.

Tears try to fall, but I shan't give in,

For it's worthless they were to be found,

If the one they fall for is not worthy deem.

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Pitter patter, boo hoo hoo.

The new day has come, three in fact have gone,

That person you know not who,

Is leaving, for with me, he is done.

Pitter patter, you're not here.

Now it's my turn to sound.

Drip drop, they fall, though none to hear.

Relieved I am to say, for not being found.

Pitter patter, you've come again.

But a little too late, I'm afraid so.

For my tears have dried, nothing gained.

Over and done, I've stopped so.

Pitter patter, tell me this.

Does this mean I have a heart?

My tears they fell, in lost of he which cease.

True it must be, since I felt it so, my heart.

0There were so many things I had yet to do together  with you. Things to say as well as things to give. Memories to weave. Treasures to hold. But now, you've left, and there's nothing I can do about it. Funny how the things that I put effort in mostly bear no fruit. Well, now the only thing is, to wish you off and let you go silently. Goodbye my love. I'll miss you much.0

with love to,

MANT.ok.

xoxo

Regrettable

When I see your face,

I am reminded,

Of the past we put to the grave.

Regret swirls around the place,

Mocking me,

Wanting my entire world to cave.

When I see those places,

I am reminded,

That I cannot remember.

All those things and faces,

I use to love,

All go down and timber.

I wish to relive that time,

The joy I felt,

Moments I deemed unforgettable.

I would give many a dime,

To regain them,

Those memories I had deemed unforgettable.

Give them back to me!

Oh how I plead,

Return what has been stolen from I!

I kneel before thee,

If not returned,

I'll surely loose it and die.

Die I will from depression,

Thou does not know,

How it pains me not being able to remember.

I am here, making my confession,

Thou has mercy,

And let me not go in a clamber.

Lonesome

Standing here at the sidelines,

Shadowed by the crowd lines.

With blankness spread over me,

My lonesomeness shall forever be.

Pictures and Memories are dear,

But will they stay ever clear,

And not ever fade from us?

Or shall they stay till we turn to dust?

Lonesome is my figure,

Leaning against cold stone walls.

Spinning my mind's gear,

Why can't they hear my calls?

..........................................................Reaching out,

.................................................Stretching throughout.

.................................................Grasping every opportunity,

.......................................Rejection laughs with glee.

Happy Moments

Friends and pictures to make the moments last,

The feeling of living out your Life the the fullest.

Is the greatest way of knowing your life isn't waste,

Living life with joy & no regrets is one's eternal wish.

Memories that'll last, tears that dry as the Sun goes up,

Dreams flowing like streams as the Moon graces the earth.

Music to spark up the dampen moods which shrouds over us,

Peace to lighten up everything while harmonizing every thing.

Happiness filled to the brim,the feeling of being alive,

Breathing every breath like your last, each little thing,

May turn your whole life around, 360 degrees and more,

What more to say the big things in life you are granted?

Lost

Choices of wrong words,

Leads to misunderstandings,

Which breeds anguish & sorrow.

The continuous of hurting,

Darkness that engulfs us whole.

Breathing is getting harder by the minute,

Oh, why won't it all just disappear and leave everything be.

Never ending tears fall,

Screams of frustration & pain,

The stinging pain of betrayal fills the air,

The stagnant air which suffocates its victims,
As the cycle of hatred continue to flow and flow.

I wish everything would just stop,
I wished we could all go back to when
all this never happened to us,
The time where we were still a family.

But I know that this is reality,
Reality has no intention to listen,
To a child's fairy-tale wish like mine.

NOTHING IS EVER GOING BACK TO WHAT IT WAS BEFORE
THAT IS REALITY

Sadden Heart

Coming home to a place with no one around,

Alone, my heart sinks, below bottom it goes.

Over and over my comfort grinds to the ground,

Depression fills me 'till an overdose.

Spinning, spinning, why won't it stop,

Fights and hurts from the past haunt my soul.

To the very brim I burst, over the top,

No matter where I go, I can never reach my goal.

Ignorance is a bliss, really a bliss,

But ignorance won't change the fact that pain fills this place.

Ignorance can't protect you from tyrants' kiss,

You will fall with ignorance as reality hits you in the face.

You aren't here, you aren't here,

You're not here to calm my troubled self.

No one, no one will take heed or hear,

The wantings I pile up on my inner-shelf.

I did...not want to hear...

I did not want to be here...

Nothing here seems dear...

Nothing seems to be clear...

In the rain we stand, we dared not move,

As words of war fly throughout the air.

With Night's embrace,the wind dances,

Tonight's scars shall not be forgotten.

"Get out of my life!" is not the words,

Not the words to be said to one who wishes,

Who wishes to disappear from this place,

This place where nothing is right anymore...

Words of forgiveness may be said,

But the wounds inflicted will not fade.

Words unsaid are not known to the other,

Only within the heart these words shall perish.

That beautiful portrait is burnt,

The glittering glass containing tears,

Spills and overturns as gravity brings it down,

Shattering to its fall, its shards spread all over,

Even as you try to glue it back together,

Its cracks will forever be there to remind you,

The never ending nightmare it tells.

Frustration

Standing...standing...

I can't help but feel,

That I'm slowly fading,

Away from hearts of steel.

Why, won't you stop,

Look at me for awhile.

Give me a chance to talk,

Before I start going wild.

Pressure grabs me tight,

But you don't understand,

The intensity that I fight,

For the me now and not then.

Yet you refuse to accept my words,

My actions which shout my loyalty.

Why won't you accept my truth,

And let yourself be free of blindness.

Why do you continue to hurt me,

Pain seeps into every core within.

Your every action, every word you utter,

Poison me to the very depth of my being.

Can't you see that your truths are lies,

Break away from them and open you eyes.

Please, otherwise, I can't be there at your aid,

Instead, I'll be on the other side of the line.

So, please, wake up!

Take heed to my words.

For the sake of the future,

And for the sake of our clan.