Lost

Choices of wrong words,

Leads to misunderstandings,

Which breeds anguish & sorrow.

The continuous of hurting,

Darkness that engulfs us whole.

Breathing is getting harder by the minute,

Oh, why won't it all just disappear and leave everything be.

Never ending tears fall,

Screams of frustration & pain,

The stinging pain of betrayal fills the air,

The stagnant air which suffocates its victims,
As the cycle of hatred continue to flow and flow.

I wish everything would just stop,
I wished we could all go back to when
all this never happened to us,
The time where we were still a family.

But I know that this is reality,
Reality has no intention to listen,
To a child's fairy-tale wish like mine.

NOTHING IS EVER GOING BACK TO WHAT IT WAS BEFORE
THAT IS REALITY

Sadden Heart

Coming home to a place with no one around,

Alone, my heart sinks, below bottom it goes.

Over and over my comfort grinds to the ground,

Depression fills me 'till an overdose.

Spinning, spinning, why won't it stop,

Fights and hurts from the past haunt my soul.

To the very brim I burst, over the top,

No matter where I go, I can never reach my goal.

Ignorance is a bliss, really a bliss,

But ignorance won't change the fact that pain fills this place.

Ignorance can't protect you from tyrants' kiss,

You will fall with ignorance as reality hits you in the face.

You aren't here, you aren't here,

You're not here to calm my troubled self.

No one, no one will take heed or hear,

The wantings I pile up on my inner-shelf.

I did...not want to hear...

I did not want to be here...

Nothing here seems dear...

Nothing seems to be clear...

In the rain we stand, we dared not move,

As words of war fly throughout the air.

With Night's embrace,the wind dances,

Tonight's scars shall not be forgotten.

"Get out of my life!" is not the words,

Not the words to be said to one who wishes,

Who wishes to disappear from this place,

This place where nothing is right anymore...

Words of forgiveness may be said,

But the wounds inflicted will not fade.

Words unsaid are not known to the other,

Only within the heart these words shall perish.

That beautiful portrait is burnt,

The glittering glass containing tears,

Spills and overturns as gravity brings it down,

Shattering to its fall, its shards spread all over,

Even as you try to glue it back together,

Its cracks will forever be there to remind you,

The never ending nightmare it tells.